happy cny. here u see, i'm blessed with the first words of the lunar new year. might not be the imminence of more to come, but i'm glad to have started.


like words i cannot string,
and inspirations i cannot tap,
my heart in tattered torn,
and mind in the living past.

i will eat a thousand roses,
if words were that sweet,
and tell you bitter
when you do not read.

i blast my ears, with classicals,
you read words off a paper,
my name in big font,
but i tell you, that, i do not write.

i'd pray of you, for you,
and ask of your being.
so close, you speak
yet i do not hear.
you write and i cannot read.
but no, you do not live.
in a distant, i could hear,
that far, i can read.

and bet on sweet memories i will,
cause, now, life is not awake.

For you.

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